It’s July. The 1/2 way mark of the year. This is my first post. July not only marks the 1/2 way point of the year gone by but so so so so much more for me personally. It’s a time of transition. Today. This month. Actually this year. It’s reflection time. This past year was gonna be “my year” I am finally instead of being behind the lens, going to be in front of it for my own vows. My fiancé and I some how did everything backwards. Had our son, bought our house, our families all thinking when are you getting married??? We decided the date for our anniversary December 5, 2020. It was gonna be a Christmas winter themed wedding. Then covid. COVID. Not only was that a curve ball for me professionally, but personally. We decided that safety must come first and canceled the big party and are keeping a small ceremony.
Aside from wedding drama, and the world right now, I want to focus on some positives.
I started an inward journey 8 years ago after I lost my father ALS, each year has brought me more and more joy and light into my life. The past few has been taking on the role of “mama.” Which is an amazing role. Equally exhausting, but I wouldn’t trade it for the world. My son is now 3 1/2. We were on the fence about home schooling him before the pandemic due to his health (acute asthma), but it gave us the final push in that direction. I’m so excited for this adventure. It’ll be a wild ride I’m sure, I was already home schooling for pre school, but this will be a whole new ball game. Another transition.
At first it was really hard for me to transition from Julia to mom. I became only mom and kind of got lost. I suffered from serve postpartum depression and that first year was one of the most challenging I have been through in my adult life. It took me awhile to see where I was and at the end of 2017 I took back my identity as myself. I sought help for the depression and additionally found my way back to yoga and exercising. I was very active prior to having my son and allowed depression to take away the things that made me “me.” This July marks 1 1/2 years of daily yoga practice. In 2018 I lost 40 pounds. 2019 I kept it off and started to look back into my professional career. I took time off while learning how to mom and human again. Learning how to be a multitasking multi person woman. It was a beautiful quest. A wondrous transition. 2020 was to be the relaunch into working professionally, going to the gym once my son was in preschool… and then covid… Back to COVID. We make all these plans and the world and the people in it just keep going and aren’t aware of our plans. Plans are made to be adjusted. It was hard to sit in months of isolation with a toddler, to change all the plans, to accept all that was going on around me. But that’s life, sometimes things get uncomfortable before they transition. Over the last month I’ve been working again by practice of social distancing with graduation photos, senior portraits, and small backyard weddings. I’ve been seeing family only to test the waters. It’s been a transition. All good transitions.
– Jules
